I got myself a pair of glasses...again.

My contact lens are expired. Haha. They hurt my eyes whenever I put them on. So, I decided to wear glasses..again. Anyway, I prefer glasses. Contacts give me a hard time to put them on, and then I have to remove them every night. You have to soak them, buy cleaning and soaking solutions, and you have to have the talent of putting them on without the aid of a mirror. Then again, it has it's advantages...like correcting the eye for a short period of time, and contacts (for makeup buffs) helps see your new eyeshadow more. Since I'm wearing glasses again, I can't curl and put mascara on my eyes whenever I'm wearing them, as my lashes tend to bump my eyeglasses. Yes, my eyelashes are long.

Eyeglasses makes me feel clumsy. I don't know if it's connected to my glasses, but I tend to drop things and sometimes trip a lot whenever I wear my glasses. Like this morning, I accidentally broke my water container. And yes, I feel I have to remove them if I am not reading or at the front of the computer. And my eyeglass frames are not the ones I used to wear. My last glasses was of a black, think frame. Similar to the ones worn by my emo homies. Now, my eyeglass frame is of a dark-brown shade, a thinner rim and a thinner stem.

I'm back to being a dork. Eyeglass + braces = Ugly Betty? Or rather, Ugly Kinkybuta?

*Then again, another hearing with the HR people later. This time, Sir Dennis will be the one accompanying me.

As I told Sochan, I'm not hoping for anything beautiful right now. I'm not hoping. If they won't give me a chance anymore, fine. If they give me another chance, I'll be very happy to start again. For all the tears I've cried, I know that I''ll still be able to find another job...or give off a fresh start.

I don't wanna hope anymore...because I get hurt in the end. With all the past experience I have that I hoped...I got hurt. I just don't want to make the same mistake again. I'm quite cautious now. I should learn from my mistakes.

Anyway, it's better to end this bitter waiting. It's been torturing me for weeks now.